Another day in parenthood. Holly slept from 9:15pm until 3:40am, pretty good if I do say so myself!
Although the most annoying thing to get asked when you have a small baby is “Are they sleeping through yet?.”
Alfie is just, well, Alfie.
Every morning coming into my bedroom & whispering “Mummy” until I wake up.
Then we’ll go downstairs and he will decide on what to have for breakfast for over an hour, then to decide to have the same cereal he wanted in the first place. Sigh.
I didn’t have the best of days yesterday, in all honesty.
After a crappy day, the next morning makes me feel nervous and I hope it doesn’t end the same way.
I’m sure we all have rubbish days sometimes, but I tend to make it into some lifetime issue and think it’s worse than it actually is.
But that’s probably just being a woman. Or like my mother, sorry!
That’s an issue on it’s own – having bad days but not having anyone to talk to.
By the time my fiance is home from work, he’s had a long day and I don’t want to bombard him with a ton of my daily issues.
My mum recently immigrated to Ireland, she is my best friend and losing her wasn’t easy.
I call her often, but sometimes all I need is a mummy hug!
My dad, also doesn’t live close.
He lives in Oxfordshire, as well as my brother, grandparents, cousins, aunty, and so on..
And my sister lives in Plymouth.
So being told “It’s going to be OK” by phone or text, isn’t the same as someone saying it in the middle of a long hug.
So it’s just me, my children, Rob, his family and a few close friends of mine which is all I have, and very grateful for.
Although I do feel a little lonely at times, I quite enjoy being independent and being a mummy to my two precious babies.
Sometimes it does come to realisation that I don’t see my family as often as I want to, I get a little sad, but it’s nothing that my Alfie can’t sort out with his huge, positive smile.
So, that’s that! We have Alfie’s swimming lesson this afternoon. Fingers crossed he doesn’t yelp when I take his swimming cap off like he usually does!